Decision Decade Blues.

Today I got really stressed out about life decisions. It seems I go in cycles - thinking about the uncertain future, stressing out about it, deciding to ignore/delay those decisions, happy and carefree for a while, realizing that I need to make decisions, stressing, ignoring...

BUT the time has come when I can not delay those (educational) decisions any longer!!!

Today I went and talked to a counselor...He told me that I could graduate in April if I didn't do a Chinese Minor..that got me thinking about what I should do?

Applications for Chinese Flagship are coming up (http://chineseflagship.byu.edu/) The application entails me stating basically a professional vision (aka what I want to be, what internship I would want in China, etc...) Frankly, at the moment, I don't know what that vision is...So this causes stress..

Here are my options.
1. Dental Hygiene (#1 option TODAY! Who knows tomorrow.) If I did this, I would graduate in April, drop my Chinese minor and start dental hygiene school in the fall 2010.
Pros: Interesting (I think), Lucrative, Uses my major I have now, Could graduate sooner and make money sooner
Cons: Costs a lot, wouldn't be using Chinese ever
2. Public Health which would entail me graduating in another year with a minor in Chinese, probably doing Chinese Flagship, and going to master's school
Pros: Could use both Chinese and Exercise Science, go to China
Cons: Might cut off marriage options, A lot of schooling, really ambitious and a lot of work, don't know if I actually want to do that JOB (in an office planning programs?)
3. Teaching would entail me doing a lot more research...because BYU has no post-grad accelerated teaching certificate programs, and the internet does not seem to be a very clear source for that. I am considering Teach for America, but I don't know if they even offer Chinese classes in urban/rural school districts
Pros: I would really enjoy the job, its a new challenge, not really related to what I've been studying for 4 years.
Cons: Location would be random, don't know that much info yet about it, VERY challenging, don't know how qualified I would feel in that setting

Any suggestions? Either on what I should do? Or how to make this decision? Or how to make decisions in general?

Current Status: Applying for everything (Flagship, getting all prereqs for dental hygiene school done, doing research) and delaying the actual decision even longer.

Flavor of the Week: Pumpkin Spice

Fall is a delight. Here is me with my two roommates, Valerie & Rebecca.

colorful Rock Canyon owns my heart.

This past weekend I went rock climbing in Rock Canyon with some friends. I fell in love










Sigh. I love life right now.

Almost dead

This week has been/is crazy.
2 midterms down
3 more to go
No life except library and school
.....
Literally spend all my time in class or work...until 8/9 pm...and I'm not even A'ceing my classes...

Today I was exhausted...and as I walked out of my test review, I saw a HUGE (biggest and most radiant I've ever seen) rainbow right over the Harold B Lee library...arching from one end to the other. It was one of Heavenly Father's tender mercies I think- I felt it was Heavenly Father smiling down on me.

Learning a ton in my marriage prep class...(don't judge, people)
President Ezra Taft Benson
“If we would truly seek to be more like our Savior
and Master, learning to love as He loves should be
our highest goal” (Teachings of Ezra Taft Benson, 275).

"Love is not so much a matter of
romance as it is a matter of anxious concern for the
well being of one’s companion" -Gordon B Hickley

Morning Love

Random Thoughts of The Day.

Consensus: My subconscious is a genuine creeper.
Evidence: A couple nights ago, I dreamnt I had some rare fungal disease where chunks of skin were peeling off (but underneath was totally normal skin). It was so odd...because I looked completely normal but could peel off what looked like muscles covered in skin...It was straight-up creepy. I woke up and made sure to pat down all of my skin and make sure it wasn't peelable. Luckily, its just my subconscious processing all of this time in the anatomy lab.

Consensus: Mornings are Made for Me
Evidence: I have officially decided that waking up early is good for the soul. My roommates all go to bed at 10:30 or earlier, which I absolutely love. Because I get home, and they are all in bed...so I might as well go to bed too...and then I wake up early, read my scriptures, and go running, and the ENTIRE day is different. Like, not EVEN joking...

Consensus: If I will study, I will succeed.
Evidence: I studied for a test yesterday in History of Creativity and I got a 100%. Insane. I thought that class was my "hardest" as in, its the one I'm least interested in. Interesting.

Consensus: Boys still confuse me.
Evidence: I am totally interested in this one boy. Every time I see him (which we both have realized is every friday morning at least) he acts super excited to see me and a little nervous to see me. He's from my mission. Last sunday I ran into him randomly by his apartment complex and we talked for 2 hours, we walked me home, and came into my apartment and chilled for a while...and then the next day I brought him pizza at work. But he never initiates...

Yes. Its true. Oh Hey is Here at last.